a "so so" day

It's a long time since I wrote here last but My life had been overtanken by events..
I'll try to write my future notes in English, i don't know how bad they will be but at least everybody can understan them, more or less.

A "so so" day is going on today, one of those days you don't know what to do,
you should do things you don't want to do
you miss people who are far away from u( ELS MEUS AMICS), you understand sadly that you have probably lost one of the most important person in your life without knowing it, you think about future without knowing what you really want from the future. And the real problem is that it is not simply a "so so" day but "ANOTHER" so so day after so many, after too much.
You would like to escape far away but you don't even know if that is the real solution to your doubts..in fact the answer is deep in you but you can't see it, you can't see it yet.

This is one of those days in which the sky is gray not only out of the window but also inside of yoU!!!!!!!!!

Anyway Tomorrow is another day, said sb
and anyway you are not sad, u promised never to be sad for stupid reasons, just "SO SO"